I was going through my college Facebook page yesterday, doing the usual stalking of my future college peers. It’s astonishing how a few words on a Facebook post can determine how you feel. Each incoming student is absolutely amazing at one thing or the other. I’ve seen professional gymnasts, football players, artists, and actors. They are amazing at what they do! I also reviewed portfolios with people in my major over a zoom call, and they are incredibly talented. Some of the artworks that I saw looked like pictures. High definition pictures. It blows my mind how good people are at things.

After that shock of realizing how talented my peers are, I felt like shit. I’m good at a lot of things, but I’m not great at them. I’m versatile but not a pro. I’m trying to become a pro at theatre and music, but something or the other comes up and hinders my progress, which sucks.

When people ask me what my biggest fear is, I always respond with the same answer – being average. It’s literally my nightmare.

With all these crazy talented people around me, I can’t help but to feel a little mediocre. I spent a ton of time today to create some long term goals for the next four years in college. It’s my last chance to get it together. I really want to make it big in whatever I do. And the first step to get there is to stop feeling mediocre.