I’m so fucking tired of being such a shitty singer. It’s so fucking hard. Like super hard, and it hurts. I’ve been trying to get this fucking mixed voice for ages, and it never ends up working, and my practice results in a busted throat. I hate this stupid fucking bitch called the mixed voice. Literally, how the fuck do you achieve it? I’ve watched tons AND TONS of videos, bought online courses and literally, none of it seems to work. I’m so fed up, and I’m at that point where you’re about to cry, when your emotions are peaking. After you cry, you feel better, but I can’t cry, so I’m just stuck with that overwhelming pile of frustration that makes me want to kill a bitch. I’ve been singing for 3 years now, and I’m absolute trash.

I want to be on Broadway, I want to start a singing channel, and I want to write songs. See what a fucked up situation I am in? I want to be a singer, but I can’t fucking sing. I’m literally good at everything else, or I could get good at things easily. I’m super smart, I’m creative and there are so many hobbies and subjects that I excel in. But I’ve got a passion for singing, and it appears that I absolutely suck at it. I literally want to smash everything I see right now. I’m so fucking frustrated, and I’m so fucking done.

Literally, if there is any god out there, please fucking help me. I’m so over this bullshit. It fucking hurts and is one of the worst feelings I’ve ever felt. Just give me what I’m fucking trying to find! PLEASE! I’m so fed up, frustrated and just fucking over it. Fuck this mixed voice bullshit.